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Syawal is here and it is always bittersweet to say goodbye to Ramadan after all those weeks of fasting and solat terawih with all Muslim brothers and sisters.
Selamat tinggal Ramadan and hope to meet you again next year. Insya Allah
All set for raya now but hearing the recent news of bombing in the Middle East these past few days makes this a sad Eid ul Fitr. What scares me the most is that one of the bombings happened in Medina, one of the most sacred places in Islam. My thoughts and prayers are with the family and victims of this sad events...
Browsing for the 'cinematic' music track right after dinner...
The Big Question pops again.
Or should I say "reared it's ugly head around the corner once again".
Sad, really. I should be asking myself The Big Question these days.
But these days has been an eye-opener for me. I'm wondering if it's The Time.
I'm happy for what it has develop into. The people even. I remember telling myself once last year that once things have stabilize, I shall make my move.
Not sure where I'll go but I'm sure I'll be able to carve my way into society once again.
I know the road will be tough and it's mostly a mental challenge which is always a struggle for me. Especially when you don't have your close friends near you for most part of the week.
But I know I'm tired. Despite the work being distributed. I'm not sure what I'm doing anymore sometimes...
=== 20th Apr 2012
Yup, I'm blogging again. My eyes are pretty much swollen right now. I'm feeling a lil better now knowing that it's raining outside. Kinda like reflects my current mood... Nice... But I'm still feeling pretty shitty. It's been a pretty amazing start to 2012. And it's only the 1st month of the new year. I don't know what went wrong. But it seems like all it started because of me. Maybe I'm too harsh on myself? Or maybe I need to put in more effort? Maybe I need to improve on certain skills? Maybe... Maybe... Maybe all of the above and more... Feeling alone again. I don't mind feeling alone. I like the solitude sometimes. But I don't like to feel alone and knowing that I'm lost with no one to turn to. Feeling frustrated right now. Seriously, what's wrong with me? I want to sleep but my brain just refuses to shut down. Too much stuff on my mind...
It's Thursday!!! Gosh this week passes pretty fast.
Another day to reply to outstanding emails. Haiz Here we go...
This shall be my first photo of 2011.
It was taken on bus 143 upper deck. I was with my Mama heading to Windsor Convalescent Home at Pasir Panjang where Bik Okmah have been staying for close to 2 years now. Will be meeting Bik Makmah there too. This has been like a weekly thing for the 2 of them. Bik Makmah will either pick Mama up if the former has the car for the day or the both of them will promise to meet up at the convalescent home itself.
Back to the picture. The double deck bus was turning in to the T-junction of west coast road from pandan gardens road. It was a really hot day. And I was contemplating if I should take a picture of the scenery. It was a red light so the bus stopped for quite a while. In the end, I whisked out my iPhone just before the bus made a left turn. Phew!
You don't see this kind of scenery a lot these days especially in this concrete jungle full of skyscrapers. it was my 2nd day in SG of the new year. felt a lil sad that the wonderful holidays has come to an end. A new chapter starts in 2011. I wonder what this year has in store for me.
I can say I managed to achieve what I want last year. I managed to stay long enough at town council to acquire admin and cashiering knowledge. Basically customer service experience. Met some nice and nasty people from all walks of life, be it customers or colleagues. I don't think I'll ever regret being there.
Then I took about 2 months break as a freelancer before I get to where I am today. Not a big achievement but it gave me hope that I am able to continue my dream. I'm learning and unlearning things in this tiny company. there are hard times when you just feel like screaming your lungs out and there are times where you can take your time and reflect on your work. Then you can laugh, shake your head and say "I can't believe I managed to survive that maelstorm!". And you'll be on the roll again but will be more prepared with your battle gears than the previous time.
So yeah, "roll with the punches during crunch time". Easier said than done.
I'll be looking forward to the next holiday to come. That's what been keeping me going through the hard times.
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Got a pleasant surprise when I entered my room after I gotback from work couple of weeks back. My Mama changed the bedsheets for me. So my whole bed is a theme of blue tones. Blue pillows. Blue bolster. Except for my blanket which is pink. Hahahahaha. Looks very comfy. Feel like just jumping into the sea of blue fluff and dream never to wake up.
Childish thoughts...
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Met up with Nani and Dila on Friday 5 Mar. Was nice to enjoy the outdoor sitting at Bali Lane as we ate and share our relationship woes til the sky turns dark.
Wanted to try the sheesha but Dila does not want it. She doesn't mind us smoke though. So Nani suggested going to Chijmes. I agreed and so did Dila.
We had a lil debate on our options to get to Le Bar Rock. I suggested walking since it's only 1 mrt stop away. Hahahaha. That kinda shocked them because it seemed very far for them. They're too used to getting around in their own car/bike.
Dila had Pussyfoot, magarita lime for me and Jack daniels for Nani. The band was pretty good. Shiraz and a couple of his friends joined us half an hour later. Me and Dila went off first since we wanna catch our last buses.
I felt real tired on the way home. Not sure if it's the drink taking effect or it's nearing my bedtime. 197 came promptly but I had to alight at NUH due to nature's call. Hahaha. My iPhone was out of batt ever since I board the bus so I took a cab home instead of going over to the bus stop to check on the last bus.
